Every time I go to the website, the countdown is at the top of the page informing me how much time is left until ING NY marathon! I am getting excited and worried(that is my nature) to the entire logistics of this upcoming task. Am I really ready for it? Three marathoner runners died last weekend; should I really be doing this as a stroke survivor? How will I really know that I am keeping my electrolytes in check? Oh , that ugly monster of fear has raised it's ugly head! Okay, I think "Time to calm down, stick to my training plan and be prepared." I watch the NY video of the marathon online and have competing thoughts. My right mind perceives the run as fun, carefree and my left mind wants details, details and more details not letting go until it has all the facts! I must find balance and peace to enjoy this journey.
I went for my 3.5 tapering run this am and was disappointed to walk. I just did not have the energy or desire to endure the nagging pain in my right hip. I decided to listen to my right side that is taking most of the wear and tear as it is the stronger side. But I could not let the moment pass without lecturing my left leg to get with the program! Needless to say, I kept this conversation to myself! At times I did stop and remember how far that I have come since the stroke and that I am running for those that can not run....what a privilege!! And as I think those thoughts and simple let myself be grateful to be alive, I become much more at peace. Needless to say, the road traveled becomes easier too!
I have made an appointment for late today to see Justin Whitaker to hopefully use his expert techniques to provide some relief to my right hip. I was disappointed as I was to see Andrea Serder at OHSU to plan out our next program for our repetitive task training which I will undertake after the marathon. It is hoped with some concentrated efforts and strength building that I will gain some better use of my left leg. It certainly was helpful for my hand and I believe it will help my gait improve. But for now and 26.2 miles in 8 days, I will work with what I have achieved to date and try to be grateful. I am so lucky and have so much gratitude for those in the world that have helped me along this every changing journey. I will have you all with me next weekend.
Katie
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